A different outlook

“I will focus on what I CAN do and not what I cannot do.”  – Shannon

I had an epiphany sometime this week and the above statement came to mind.  My counselor asked me what brought it on and I said I have no idea!  The negative thoughts aren’t/weren’t getting me anywhere so I figured I needed to try something new.  So with that said, I’m trying to have a better outlook.  Enough from the pitty party host.  I need to change my way of thinking. Continue reading

CF Clinic day

I managed to get myself up and out the door for 2 doctor appointments.  I had a very hard day yesterday, emotionally and physically.  I finished my Effexor taper the day before which brought on the emotional bad day of crying spells out of nowhere, rages, screaming/yelling out of frustration, brain zaps, can’t find the right words for things, wobbly, dizzy, etc.  Physical symptoms are non productive cough which sucks.  I can’t sleep for more than an hour at a time it seems.  I can’t get comfortable. My anxiety is through the roof. Yada yada yada yada. Continue reading

A bunch of jumbled thoughts

I hope I can write this and let it make sense because it is all jumbled in my head….  It feels like a game of ping pong with my thoughts in my head.  Hmmmm let me divide it into topics….hahahaha  Continue reading

3rd times a charm hopefully

/shannonigansToday I had my third set of intercostal blocks in my back for the rib pain.  As you know, I have a broken rib that is taking forever to heal due to the fact that I can’t take a break from breathing, coughing or sneezing to give it time to heal.  The pain is better than when it first began back in February, 5 and a half months ago so for that I’m glad but there is still a little bit to go to be pain free.  Yes, I hope to be pain free.  Yes, I’m asking for a lot. Yes, I’m stubborn. hahaha.  I have a follow up appointment with the pain clinic August 10th to talk about this set injections hoping to be done with the pain clinic.   Continue reading

CF Clinic/Follow up from the hospital

Today’s clinic visit was a follow up from my last admission.  Ya know, the one where I kept coughing up blood, yeah that one.  The visit was short and “sweet” because I had so many other things I had to get done today so I put them on a deadline of when I needed to be out of there.  hahaha   Continue reading