We recently got back from Hawaii (Honolulu, Oahu). The purpose for the trip was to spread my mom’s ashes in her favorite place on earth. She wanted to be in Hawaii forever and ever. We chose to spread her ashes in front of Duke’s restaurant on Waikiki beach, mom’s favorite restaurant. It was a very special time but also surreal and will forever be a memory in my heart. Continue reading
I called my nurse today and asked for the obligatory 3rd week of IVs. 14 days never seems to get me over the hump. Although, I would love to be needle free tomorrow, that will have to wait another 7 days. Continue reading
When you have a chronic illness waiting is part of life. Waiting to get better, waiting/holding steady or waiting to die. Yep, I said it. It’s a part of my reality and when I have friends waiting for lungs and others who are not candidates for transplant or don’t want to go that route who are basically waiting to die. Maybe you could call it “living to die.” Whatever it may be, it is life. Continue reading
This is what a $500 battery for my POC (portable oxygen concentrator) looks like. Yep $500!!!! I have to have 2 of these for the trip to Hawaii. Per FAA regulations, you have to have 150% of battery life compared to your flight/layover time. I had to be approved by Delta to fly with my oxygen. Then they dropped the bomb that I needed 2 double batteries (a total of $1,000) OR a double battery and 2 single batteries ($500 + ($325×2) = $1,150). One double battery gives me about 8-8.5 hours at 2 liters. One single battery (which is what came with my POC) gives about 4-4.5 hours of 2 liters. Thank you to everyone who donated to the lung fund for allowing us the means to buy $1,000 worth of freaking batteries.
If you would like to donate we would greatly appreciated it.
Thank you to you all for all of your love and support!!
Until next time….
I hope I can write this and let it make sense because it is all jumbled in my head…. It feels like a game of ping pong with my thoughts in my head. Hmmmm let me divide it into topics….hahahaha Continue reading
I received an article via email titled “Associations between adherence, depressive symptoms and health-related quality of life in young adults with cystic fibrosis.” The first line of the article is the following, “Cystic Fibrosis (CF) is a life shortening disease, however prognosis has improved and the adults with cystic fibrosis live independent lives and balance the demands of work and family life with a significant treatment burden. They administered 3 standardized questionnaires to 67 CF patients aged 18-30 years; Medication Adherence Scale, Major Depression Inventory and CF Questionnaire. One third of the participants reported systems of depression. Health-related quality of life scores were especially low on vitality and treatment burden and symptoms of depression were associated with low health-related quality of life. High depression symptoms scores were associated with low adherence. All of that mumbo jumbo means that depression and CF go hand in hand. The higher the rate of depression, the lower rate of adherence of treatments and meds, etc. and vice versa. Continue reading
Today’s clinic visit was a follow up from my last admission. Ya know, the one where I kept coughing up blood, yeah that one. The visit was short and “sweet” because I had so many other things I had to get done today so I put them on a deadline of when I needed to be out of there. hahaha Continue reading
I received my letter of determination from my lung transplant evaluation….
- “This letter is in regards to your recent lung transplant evaluation at Barnes-Jewish Hospital in St. Louis, MO. Based on the results of you evaluation, we feel like you may be a suitable candidate for lung transplant in our program. However, there are some program requirements that must be met before you can be listed with the United Network of Organ Sharing at our hospital. Therefore, you have not been listed with the UNOS at this time. Attached is a letter from your Nurse Coordinator outlining the requirements that must be successfully completed prior to listing for lung transplant.”
We are heading out to St. Louis to Barnes Jewish Hospital for the week of transplant evaluation. With that comes a lot of emotions as you can imagine. I am excited, nervous, anxious and ready to breathe. Not that they are going to fix me right up while we are there but I’m ready to get some answers and find out where I am on the transplant spectrum. Continue reading