Clinic check up

Today was originally a regular follow up but became an IV check up. All looks good. My weight is down a little from all the antibiotics wreaking havoc on my gut. My FEV1 was down a smidge to 34%/.98L but still around my baseline. I also had a dexa scan (bone density). I have a dexa every 2 years to check my bone health. In 2016 my scan showed osteopenia which is a step before osteoporosis. It just means that my bones are a little weak. With CF I don’t absorb nutrients normally because of my bad pancreas therefore I have to take vitamin and calcium supplements. Continue reading

Depression really sucks

I am officially off the Effexor and it has not been easy.  I am experiencing what are called “brain zaps.”  It is really like your brain goes “bzzz zzzz zzz.”  It is very annoying and makes me want to scream.  My body is sore.  The commercials that say “depression hurts” are the truth.  It doesn’t help right now that I am on Levaquin that causes joint and muscle pain.  It’s a double whammy. Continue reading

Life update

I saw my surgeon for my follow-up from gallbladder surgery and everything is good.  All healed up!  Not having the pain from having a bad gallbladder is great!  I’ve known it needed to come out for a while now, I just needed it to finally act up.  I told the surgeon the only thing left to take out is my appendix and these crappy lungs…hahaha. Continue reading

Update and depression talk

I guess I should update you all since my stay in “lock up” (aka the hospital).  My creatinine (kidney level) is finally back down in normal range.  It was .91 when I last had my blood drawn at CF clinic last Thursday.  Yay for that.  Even more yay, I can start to take ibuprofen, in moderation, for my aches and pains since Tylenol does nothing for me. Continue reading

Life update

I had a CF clinic check up yesterday and all is good.  My lung functions are up 3% to 36% from 33%.  They said I sounded good and looked good.  My BMI is great at 24, yes I have some extra weight to help fight off infection.  When I’m sick I can lose weight fast because your body takes the calories you take in to fight off infection.  Not that I feel comfortable with the extra weight but everyone says, “you look so good,” so I’ll take it I guess.  If the extra weight helps me stay “healthy” (whatever that is) I try to deal with it the best I can. Continue reading

Joy

Where has my joy gone? Where is the happy-go-lucky Shannon that we are all used to?  Losing my mom seems to have taken my joy away on top of my CF progressing.  I had a good cry fest over our trip to KC over Spring Break.  Maybe it was because I couldn’t see my mom while there as usual.  Maybe it’s because I’m just a wimp and got home sick within days of being in KC.  I like the comfort of home where all of my medical stuff is so I have the things I need.  Packing with all the medical stuff is a pain in rear.  The anxiety of “did I remember everything.”  I forgot one of my inhaled meds this trip, ugh.  We were gone 10 days.  I defiantly could tell a difference not having it but I made it through. Continue reading

Friends and Family

What to do when you are woken up and you can’t get back to sleep….you get up and blog about what is on your mind.  Friends and family have been on my heart and mind for a while.  The sicker that I get the more I think about them and what they may be feeling.  Family is “stuck” with me but that doesn’t mean they have to deal or even claim my CF. They can love me from afar and still be my family even if they don’t want to acknowledge  my CF or even remember.  It is easy to ‘forget’ that I have anything since we are states away from one another and we don’t see each other daily or even weekly or monthly, sometimes going longer without talking to each other as well. Continue reading