• Hey y’all! I had CF clinic this morning for a check up after my hospital stay that was from March 31st to April 8th. It was a great appointment, if I do say so myself.

    My lung functions were really good. My FEV1 was 36%/0.89L! I haven’t seen 36% or over since early 2022. These numbers are because I’ve been on prednisone for the last 5.5 weeks. We are hoping I can hold onto these good numbers.

    If you are curious on what my steroid taper looked like for the last 5.5 weeks, here goes…I started at 60mg twice a day of IV solumedrol on day 1 in the ER. I continued 60mg twice a day for 6 days. I then moved to 60mg once a day for 2 days. I then switched to 50mg of oral prednisone once a day when I went home and continued that for 5 days. The taper then went down to 40mg for 5 days. I then went down to 30mg for 5 days. When I went down to 20mg, I didn’t tolerate it well. My lungs got very tight after 2 days on 20mg. I asked to go back up to 30mg or 40mg. My clinic PA ok’d me going back up to 30mg for 7 days. I was then able to move down to 20mg for 7 days. I was then finally able to go down to 10mg on Tuesday of this week. My last day of 10mg will be on Monday!! It’s been a long 5.5 weeks on steroids. I’ll be very happy to be done with steroids.

    CF clinic was short and sweet, just the way I like it! I saw one of the clinic nurse practitioners today. My blood pressure was slightly elevated today. It’s not too surprising after walking into the exam room from the waiting room. Walking rises the BP. To answer the most common question I get about my high BP…NO, I do NOT have “white coat syndrome.” If you don’t know what “white coat syndrome” is, that is when you get nervous/anxious when you go to the doctors. I have never gotten anxious about seeing the doctor. I do NOT have medical anxiety at all. I never have in all my 45 years had “white coat syndrome.” So the high BP is strictly medicine related and from my really crappy asshole lungs.

    My primary doctor upped one of my blood pressure meds when I saw her last, on April 17th, until I’m done with steroids. The steroids are not helping my high blood pressure at all. My primary doctor had me start taking the HCTZ (hydrochlorothiazide) 12.5 mg in the evening as well as in the morning to help keep my blood pressure low enough for her liking. The last 2 days my blood pressure at home has been REALLY good! I have an electric BP machine. It always reads my BP higher than it really is. Thankfully my husband was a trauma medic when he was in the Air Force, therefore he still has his BP cuff and his expensive stethoscope. This means my husband checks my BP for me at home for me so I can get a real reading. I will go back to taking the HCTZ 12.5mg only in the morning when I finish taking the prednisone next Monday.

    I hadn’t shared this next little tidbit of info because it can be/could be embarrassing to share but honestly when have I been embarrassed when it comes to my health stuff. haha. I’m an open book for a reason and the reason is to educate people. I’m not stopping with the education now.

    The main reason for the appointment with my primary doctor on April 17th was for her to look at the “lesions/bumps” on my tongue. Well…turns out that I had a herpes flare in my mouth/on my tongue. I have never had a herpes flare IN my mouth. I have only had really bad cold sores which is the herpes virus showing up and being a butthead. When your immune system is knocked down from being on antibiotics and steroids, it gives the herpes virus free rein to show up pretty much anywhere it wants to. If the herpes virus lives in your body, it’s there indefinitely therefore it rears its ugly head when it feels like it. haha.

    The treatment is Valtrex (which is an anti-viral). She prescribed a 10 day course, with me taking it 3 times a day. Thankfully after about 4-5 days I started to see tiny improvements. The lesions were basically gone after maybe a week, I can’t remember. I’m now finally able to eat good flavorful food again. I was serving basically on plain mashed potatoes, mac and cheese, string cheese, scrambled eggs and other soft pretty bland food. Cold things like popsicles hurt so much to eat. Really hot food hurt as well. It was a lot of trial and error when trying different foods. I had to keep my drink full because I had to continue to take drinks after every bite to help “push” the food down. My tummy is very happy to be able to eat my husband’s delicious cooking again.

    I did mention in a previous blog post that I had lost some weight (about 10 pounds) since being in the hospital. Being limited on what I could eat for about 2-3 weeks did NOT help the weight loss situation. With that said, my BMI is still in good range. I am basically back to my pre Trikafta weight and I’m not mad at that!

    That sums up today’s appointment. I will go back to see them in 3 months for a normal check up. The NP said she didn’t even want to come into my room with the numbers I blew. She didn’t want to jinx anything. I didn’t really NEED anything except having her listen to my lungs, which sounded decent, and making sure I didn’t need any refills or any other random things. Here’s to making it to my 3 month check up without needing to be seen before that appointment. haha

    Until next time…

  • I can tell you now before I even type it up that this post is going to longer because I want to cover all the things…recent hospitalization, pulled chest muscles, rib popping, back and just how thankful I am to be alive!

    When you are a CFer (or any chronically ill person that’s in the hospital often) being discharged from the hospital is the best feeling! Being able to go home to all your things and your people is amazing. Getting settled back in at home is a step in the healing process to me.

    I have a really good friend that has a chronic illness (not CF) that said it perfectly today. When we get home from the hospital we get the “zoomies.” Why didn’t ever think of putting it that way!? It’s so true, at least for me it is. We’ve been cooped up in a small room, laying in bed most of the day for what seems like forever. So of course when we get home we may go into “do all the things I wasn’t able to do” mode. I know that’s me to a T. I’ve been that way since I was a kid, there’s no changing my ways at 45. I just go with it.

    Ok, now onto how I’m actually feeling. I have received many texts, Facebook messages and Instagram messages asking me how I’m feeling and if I’m feeling better yet…which I absolutely LOVE getting by the way! I love that people snag a few moments out of their busy day to check on me. Thank you for that!

    I am getting a smidge better each day. Remember that this me “getting better” thing is going to be a slow process. This isn’t my first rodeo, so I take the time I need and don’t rush it. I often feel like people get discouraged when I tell them I’m not “better” yet. I know they are just really wanting me better and over this hump. Trust me, I want the same exact thing. “Better” is a relative term though. Your “better” is most likely not the same as my “better” and that’s ok. The end goal is that I am NOT where I was when I showed up to the ER on Monday, March 31st. The answer to that one is…YES, I am definitely NOT where I was when I showed up to the ER. With how hard my asthma was hit this time around, it’s going to be a much slower pace getting back to where I was before all of this parainfluenza and asthma stuff showed up. We are doing a long slow taper off the prednisone in the hopes that my lungs won’t get angry and throw a tantrum. So far so good!

    With all that said, please don’t feel bad for me when I answer your question honestly of “how are you feeling” and “are you better.” When I answer “I’m not there yet” or something along those lines that’s just how it goes. Life with CF is ALL I know since I was diagnosed at only 5 months old, which means I have no other way of life to compare it to. I’m 100% ok with that! Simply saying, “I don’t know what to say,” is 100% the right thing to say. You don’t need the “right” words to say, there are no “right” words. Just saying that you wanted to check on me means the world. Please don’t feel like you to fix the situation. There’s no fixing, just existing in it and doing the thing.

    People often comment on how positive of a person I am in general. I’ve learned that being negative about the cards life dealt me does nothing for me. It will only keep me in a dark place of “why me” and that’s a mentally and physically draining place to live. I made the choice to live my life to the fullest for whatever time I’m given LONG ago. I’m living on borrowed time as it is considering that when I was born the life expectancy of CFers born in 1980 was late teens.

    I am just so thankful for the life I’ve been able to have with my husband and two bonus kids. There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think about how lucky I am to have my little family (and HUGE extended family). I am truly blessed. When I share good things that happen in my life it’s only because I instantly think, “man, I’m so happy I am alive and get to experience these things!” I’m big on making all the memories in any situation and taking ALL the pictures you can (even if you never share them). One day the memories and pictures will be all that’s left and you will be very thankful to have them. I could go on and on about this topic but I won’t. I’m just thankful to be alive!

    HOW ARE ALL THE PULLED CHEST MUSCLES AND RANDOM POPPING IN THE LEFT SIDE OF MY CHEST DOING? The pulled muscles are so much better! That’s when my body decided to add “rib/muscle popping” to my bag of party tricks. I can’t remember if I shared about the popping feeling/sound that started before I went to the ER on my blog. There’s a few things the popping could be…it could have been a fractured rib but that was ruled out…it could be an intercostal muscle strain (pulled or strained muscle between the ribs) moving around…it could be intercostal neuralgia (inflammation or irritation of the nerves between the ribs). With all those possibilities as to why the popping showed up, I’ll just say that the popping feeling/sound are MUCH better. I do still brace my left side by pressing right where it is to keep whatever it is in place to help stop the popping. haha. Not to worry, I see the light at the end of the tunnel with this one as well!

    HOW’S MY BACK, YOU ASK… It’s great! Honestly, with everything else going on it’s kinda been on the back burner but not in a bad way. It’s been healing great and a non issue. As of Monday April 7th, all my NO bending, lifting and twisting restrictions were unofficially/officially lifted! Obviously, don’t overdo it and if something hurts, don’t do it. I’m not a dummy. haha. During this crazy time of being sick, I’m really only reminded of “operation evict Pete the peanut,” when I move/bend in a way where I notice tightness in my back OR when I lean against something with my left thigh (which is forever numb, never going to get feeling back) and it feels like I’m leaning again a big lump of something that’s pressing on my thigh when there’s nothing there OR when I get one of the good ol’ phantom pain zaps in my left thigh which have been almost nonexistent. So to answer the age old question, “how is your back is doing?”…uh why are you asking about my back?? Oh yeah, I had back surgery in January. haha. I just mean that it’s a non issue and doing fantastic!

    I think that covers everything. So as I like to say…

    Until next time…